I feel like as we get older the subject of mortality comes up a lot. Now, I've lost family and friends very dear to me over the years, but I've never suffered losing a parent young, three out of four of my grandparents are still enjoying life, and I've never lost someone in a tragedy. I am very lucky. So why mortality?
I'm not worried about getting older because I can't control it. Mortality just becomes a bit more tangible when people, good people, are ripped from their families at the hands of someone else, or someone passes away much sooner than you could ever expect.
Let's be honest, no matter how old you think you are, you have no fucking clue what life is about. Most of us are on a constant journey to better ourselves and the lives of those around us in order to gain a better concept of what it's all about. By the age of 23, my dad had fought in a war, traveled the world on an aircraft carrier, and so much more. By the time I was the same age, I was just graduating University with my first degree in an economy that wasn't welcoming any career hopefuls with open arms. Our experiences and expectations of what life is, and what it can be, differ in some ways. I'm sure you can imagine the reasons why. Life experiences and backgrounds make us conceive things a little differently. I was raised Roman Catholic in an Irish Catholic family, but I consider myself an agnostic. I believe instead of improving anything, organized religion is the root of most of the world's problems. The preachings of my church should have made me feel a little more secure about the notion of life and death but it hasn't.
Why as a society are we all so put off by the idea of growing older or scared of just not being around anymore? Perhaps it takes our heroes to leave and terrible tragedies to occur to remind us that mortality shows no favoritism. We are all on a limited time span, some far shorter than others.
Time speeds by faster the more years you put behind you, and at 31, I am definitely taking notice. Sometimes it scares the hell out of me not knowing what follows this life we're living. If you linger on that thought too long...you can reach a very dark, foreboding place -- I don't suggest it. All I can say is I'd like to believe that this life can't all be for nothing. I find it impossible to fathom that when we go out of our way to help, inspire, love, and create that it all just abruptly ends. Then again, maybe the promise of our eternal life is just being remembered...our legacy is what endures forever. So instead of worrying about getting older or how much time we have, or what comes after, we just need to focus on what we're doing now. Help. Inspire. Love. Create. Leave a legacy!
And if you're an American call your Representatives!!